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Name: Laydee S
State: California
Metro: Orange County
Birthday: 8/24/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: 20 years old, loves to write poetry and lyrics, loves her cat, captain crunch, ice cream sundaes, music, watching movies, ER, Family Guy, myspace, Linkin Park, Nas, cherry coke, uggs, make-up, photography, cookies, ESPN, football, books, sleep, vicoden and trazadone, hair dye, a good pillow, stars, my little honda civic, Hawaii, cuddling
**I post poetry but please note that not all poems are how I am feelings at this time. Some are from previous events. They are simply my thoughts.
Expertise: JP....and life to an extent.
Industry: Real Estate
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Member Since:
2/5/2005
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| **We
wrote this email to Lauren after we got a psycho email from her asking
JP to "please tell Sandra to stop writing mean/hurtful things about me
in her blog" on myspace. So we pointed a few things out to her. I
think we did rather well. And I think I would feel prety stupid if I
got his!!**
September 3rd 2005
In
your last email “I have just one request....” You asked me to tell
Sandra to stop writing hateful/hurtful things about you in her blogs.
You included this passage from one of Sandra’s blogs.
"BE HONEST
HERE: WHAT WOULD SOMEONE YOU KNOW, WHO DOESN'T LIKE YOU SAY ABOUT YOU??
you want me to be honest?? okey doke. Some think I spend my days out to
get them, that I'm "malicious, vindictive and pure evil" and that I
stole their boyfriend, when in fact they had already been broken up
with my fiance for 8 FUCKING months when I met him so I think the
appropriate verb is KEPT, I kept him from her. They think I am "crazy
and need professional help" which may be true, Shit, the whole fucking
world is nuts to an extent. And they think I am flat out a bitch. Which
I finally was after being harassed with 4am calls and emails and all
kinds of immature internet drama that they. So am I any of the above??
By nature...No....but just like everyone else I have the POTENTIAL TO
BE!"
In case you’re wondering where she got the idea that you
thought she was vindictive and pure evil, the above blog was based on
various quotes from posts and blogs from myspace. Here’s one you left
on Gia’s page.
8/12/2005 2:14:00 PM
You and I are adopting
the name "Palpatine"!!!! It just seems to work on so many levels....the
vindictiveness, the manipulation, the sheer EVIL!!!! Andy's a genius,
that name just works on soooo many levels!!!!
And here’s one from your blog…
Crazy needs to find something better to do.... 8/3/2005
Current mood: annoyed
Dude...crazy just won't leave me alone!!!! Crazy insists on emailing me
all the time and having to justify things. Crazy needs to get a life
and professional help as well. For my close friends...you'll have to
email me and I'll explain more...I just wish crazy would leave me
alone.
This passage from Sandra’s blog was a test to see if
you or our “mutual friends” were still reading her blogs and you did
exactly what you were expected to do.
"So are you
boneheads that AREN'T actually people that I know done reading my shit
for amusement or do I still have to censor my stuff so I don't get
crazy ass calls, emails, nicknames and all that kind of shit?!?!?!?!
Can I just write what I want without my words (which are never directed
at any one person) getting twisted around and all that shit or do I
still have to watch what I say so that some drama queen doesn't try to
make it what it's not??
The fact that you’re quoting/reading her
blogs shows that you’re just looking for trouble. If you want to talk
about manipulation…here’s a comment taken from Holly’s page.
8/13/2005 11:11:00 PM
OMG...I
love the pick that you and Nessa did. Jemmy and I agree that it makes
her look prettier than she really is!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it also brings
out her true self!!!!!Hey Gia, Andrew, and I all call her Palpatine...it just seems to fit her don't ya think?!?!?!?! LOLGreat pic though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hey tell Nessa I want a Lando too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is from your most recent email “I have just one request....”
---Okay this is just beyond ridiculous!!! Like I said I'm not a drama queen,nor have I called, emailed,or phoned you guys about anything. I haven't even blogged anything about her!!!You can read all my blogs if you like but there is nothing in there referring to her.
I will now share with you various excerpts from blogs and emails referring to her.
August 3rd 2005
“You need to take somelithiumand quite possibly check yourself into some mental hospital facility and talk about possible treatments for feelings of inadequacy and insecurity.
But whatever bitch...last night I was calling for Gia not you or JP...I
was the friend that she hung out with. I was calling because the cell
phone number I had under her name was not the right one so get over
yourself...not everything has to be about you. I'm not obsessing over
you two...if he wants to settle for less than he deserves that's his
problem.”
May I interject that Sandra has NEVER
made reference to your depression, suicide attempts, medications or
suppositions as to the level your self esteem. The email goes on to
state…
“Do us both a favor and GROW UP....if
JP wants you then so be it...yes I still love him but I'm mature enough
to let go...besides I've got a lot more going for me than you do so
maybe it's a good thing that you'll be unavailable seeing as to how you
don't seem to have that many great qualities. Just leave me alone...you're obviously do suffer from feelings of inadequacy if you have nothing better to do with your time than email me back justifying your relationship. I hope you get help for that...it's a disease. You're sick get over it and get help for it.”
This is from an email from you…
Aug 2, 2005 10:04 PM Subject: No Subject :
FUCK YOU.. and by the way i happen to know that almost every one of jp's friends hate you...you'll be divorced withing a year.
This is from the blogs that you told me to read where you claim you never wrote anything about her.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
5-WORST
SOUND? OMG...forks stratching on a porcelain plate!!! Or have you ever
noticed how noisy classrooms are when you're trying to take an
exam....that's pretty irritating too. Oh...and biggest
one....Palpatine's ramblings...Nessa, Holly, Jemmy, Chub Nub you all
know who I'm talking about!!!
Even if you didn’t make these statements you still included it in your blog and made them viewable to everyone.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
First
she and I tackled the ex boyfriend thing. I told her what he said and
how he's engaged now and then she asked how old he and his fiance were
and how long they've been dating. I told her and what she said next
instantly made me feel a little bit better...She said "Are you fucking
kidding me?!?! She's young and stupid and the 'marriage' will never
last!!! I mean c'mon they've only been dating for 3 months, it will
never last and you shouldn't worry because if he is running down the
aisle so fucking soon it either means that she is pregnant and he has
to marry her, or they are both way too insecure to be in a relationship
because they are both afraid of being alone."
Even if it's just the "she's stupid and ugly and their marriage won't last"
Here is another misconception I take issue with…
“JP,
I
don't know where you got the idea that I hate Sandar. If you really
knew me, which obviously you must not have, you would know I don't hate
people. Hate is a very powerfull emotion, one that you might never
recover from which is why I don't hate people.I do on the other hand pity. I pity the both of you.”
“If you want to marry her, go ahead and do it.I happen to think that I'm the stronger of us two since I'm not settling for less…”
“if he wants to settle for less than he deserves that's his problem.”
August 3rd 2005
“I'm sorry that you feel like you have to settle for less than you deserve.”
I
happen to know the Sandra that most people don’t. Wherever you got the
assumption that I was settling, that idea is way off. That is a huge
assumption for you to make. And remember ‘when you assume you make an
"ass" of "u" and "me".’
This is from your most recent blog…
September 2nd 2005
Pues...hay
una chica que siempre me molesta. No hare nada porque me da igual y si
ella quere me molesta entonces se pueda porque todo el mundo piensa que
es muy estupidia y que ella es loca!!! Mis amigos me digan que ella lo
hizo. Pues...repitare...me da igual.
English translation:
Well,
there is this girl that always bothers me. I won't do anything about it
because it's like whatever to me and if she bothers me then she can go
to hell because the whole world thinks she is very stupid and that she
is crazy!!! My friends tell me she did it. Well I'll repeat it, to me
it's like whatever(I don't care)
If this is not about her then why bother putting it in spanish?
I must contest the following statement from the September 3rd email entitled “I have just one request....”“Seriously JP, I understand that she likes to "speak her mind" as she calls it, but I haven't done anything tooffend the either of you two.”
Sandra and I find all of these statements and many others quite offensive.
My
advice to you is to stop reading Sandra’s blogs and next time any of
our “mutual friends” give you a “heads up” just ignore it. Her blog is
her business just like your blog is your business, that’s why it’s
called MySpace. If you don’t want to hear/read it, DON’T read it. She doesn’t read your blogs or leave negative comments about you on people’s pages.
You
started this by reading blogs that did not pertain to you and you have
the power to end it. I know Sandra is not completely innocent and some
hurtful things were said but it ends now. It takes two make a peace and
I’m sure Sandra would be glad to put all this behind us.
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I'd have to say Star Wars is pretty fucked up!
Some people are pretty fucked up and have some pretty fucked up priorities.
So this thing is going around that JP's sister, Jabba the Hut is
celebrating her birthday this thursday, as in tonight. I'm assuming
it's tonight since the OC starts next thursday...and yeah well
everyone that will be there watches the show. What fucken pisses me off
is that JP wasn't invited. I don't give a shit that I wasn't invited, I
don't really care to go, alcohol or not but he's hurt by it. But she
did invite Jar Jar. Now she knows damn well that if she invites Jar Jar
to something he's not going to go, for 2 reasons. 1, I automatically
won't go and 2. he just doesn't want to see her at all. So the fact
that Jabe invited Jar Jar before she even thought to invite her own
brother is pretty damn FUCKED UP!!!
Especially after she made this big ass deal about how they've grown
apart and she just want's her brother back, blah blah blah. And somehow
it will be my fault she didn't invite him.....I amSO FUCKING GLAD THAT MY SISTERS ARE NORMAL!!!!!!!
Jp is pretty hurt by it but he's not saying anything because
he doesn't want to start drama....but the next time she wants to come at him
with the bullshit about how suppodly I'm the one that pulled him away....he can
nicely remind her that she is the one that pushed him away.
What I don't understand is why she is suddenly so close to his ex....so her
friendship means more then her brothers....I think she's hoping that I'm just a
passing phase and that JP and I will suddenly break up one day but it's not
going to happen. So she can be friends with Jar Jar all she wants but at the
end of the day when she misses her brother and wants to whine and cry like a 5
year old about all that bullshit the only person she can blame is herself
because I'm sure as hell not going to take responsibility for the fact that
she's a fuck up....fuck that shit!
And in case anyone is wondering....jar jar is his ex and jabba the hut is his
sister....it's kind of retarded how they got these names but if you know the
story it's funny
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| So....JP and I were talking about the stuff we have from our ex's
today. I still have abunch of stuff from Matt but I got rid of the crap
I have from Prince....excpet what is glued in my book. I can't get rid
of that unless I chuck the whole book and that is atleast a years worth
of my writing and I would never do that. He doesn't really care because
he knows I am all his. He has this box in the closet with all of his
ex's shit in it. I know it's there and if I wanted to look in it I
could. He would show it to me if it really matter that much but it
doesn't. I'm just glad he realizes that there are certain things from
Matt that I will never get rid of, like my bear and certain pictures
and certain letters. But most of it is already gone. Its funny how
right after a break up you hold on to every single piece of anything
and as time goes in you just start throwing away what doenst really
matter anymore. Altho when I found his star wars ticket he told me to
tear it up, siad he didnt want it anymore. I was only too happy to
oblige becasue it was at the point where she was pissing me off anyway.
I feel sorry for her. She needs to move on. Jp hasnt wanted anything to
do with her for a long time and thats why we avoid karoke and hanging
out with them in genereal. We just don't want the drama and from just
what I've seen in the past 2 months she is a drama queen and she
thrives on it. But it is hard to be where she is. But she had her
chance, 8 months to come back for him and she didn't want him until
someone else had him. Sad when you dont realize what you had. I kinda
went thru that with Prince and then he went thru it the sencond time.
It was crazy. But hey shit happens. I'm just glad Jp is finally happy.
We talked about relationships this morning. And he said being with me
is the first time he has truely been happy and felt that his efforts
were being returned. He said that his ex was really selfish and she
didnt make a lot of time for him and he always felt like he was giving
twice as much as he was giving. But all he tells me is how grateful he
is that we are equal instead of him feeling like he is below a person.
Same with me. Being with Prince was driving me nuts. He returned the
love when it was convenvient for him. Wow...its funy how our ex's are
alike....maybe they should date. But every now and then he does have
something good to say about her. He just doens't understand where all
of her bitterness and haterred came from. And her whole bit about
claiming to not hate me, that she just pities me...well then I would
hate to see what hatred is for her because she is already a delusional
bitch. I read her blogs every now and then and I think, wow she could
be normal but then she goes and does something that falls into the
"crazy-psycho-stalker-ex-girlfriend" catagory. And her emails to both
of us are even more psycho then her blogs. But JP wasn't lying when he
said that she was jealous as all hell. Glad I'm not like that. Takes
too much effort. Its funny because I still talk to Prince's sisters and
they always want me to come over but I just don't want to deal with it.
Too much damn drama. I just feel bad for the girl. Maybe she needs
another week or so in the psych ward to regain her senses. Might do her
good. Or maybe she just needs to accept that he does not want her, not
because of who she is or what she did to him but because he is with me.
He got over it, he moved on it heppens. We humans like to call it life.
But he has lost alot of respect for her latley becaus eof how immature
and ignorant she has been. O well. There just isn't help for some
people that refuse to let go.
Anyway, moving on. I got an email from Valerie Ward today. We've talked
a bit since high school but it's always been kind of wierd since she
spent all of our junior year chasing Matt. Why do girls always go after
my guys??I had to fight My and Sandy off of Prince when I was with him
too. I don't get it. LOL But then she apologized senior year
after we broke up, she had spent the summer in Austrailia and got over
him. Plus he was dating Alita anyway. And yet I never held a grudge.
I'm just not like that. Even with Lauren, JP's psycho ex if she could
learn to behave and act normal I could forget all this. But as JP says
she likes to hold grudges, I think it gives her something to do with
her otherwise pathetic life. But Val is a wedding planner now and
offered to help if I had a few questions or whatever. But when I
responded to her email I also told her Matt had just gotten married and
that Becky was pregnant. His sister and I are VERY close still and his
mom still calls me and emails me to see how I'm doing. And every now
and then if we are online at the same time we im each other to say hi.
Its just craxy to me that we've known each other since we were 14 and
now we are 21 and both married/getting married. CRAZINESS!! Anyway she
asked me if I had Matt's number. I do but I'm not giving it out. I told
her to call his mom and ask her. That way he won't get pissed at me if
he doesnt want to talk to her. It's not my business to be handing out
numbrs. But I just thought it was wierd. Maybe she just wanted to
congratulate him. O well. Either way I am staying out of it.
K well I am off. JP just got out of the shower and I am going to make
lunch and then go do laundry. I like the little rountine that we are
settling into.
I got the job. We are going out to celebrate after I get paid but with
just a few people and leaving the unwanted assholes at home. I don't
want people coming along just because they think we're going to buy
them drinks. Fucken drunks. I didin't want them at my birthday, don't
want them here either.
I LOVE MY FIANCE!
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Well the 21st was last night. No, I am not hung over. I discovered the
cure to that a long time a go....you drink as much water as you do
alcohol and you will be fine. Here are a few pics. This is a short one
for now. I'm fighting with the stupid website to let me in so I can out
the rest up. Fuckers. 
Me and My baby!!! Aren't we cuuuuute!! LOL
